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Sep. 21st, 2009

A new job!

It’s been so long since I’ve written a blog. So long since I had the TIME to write a blog actually. I’ve been pretty busy trying to keep up with homework and getting ahead so that once I started work, then I wouldn’t feel so behind the 8-ball.


Well, I’m not ahead on my homework. In fact, I’m so behind. I don’t understand anything of what I’m supposed to be learning in math class. I’m trying SO hard and getting nowhere. I’m getting frustrated. I’m not too behind in my computers class, so that’s good I guess.


Today was my first day at my new job. I like it. I have my own desk and my coworkers all seem SO nice, too. The pay isn’t all that great and I was told not to expect that pay to go up much (if at all) but it’s a job, and it’s close to home. I went to the store today and got some things to put on my desk, like a picture frame to put a picture of Quay in. It’s a hot pic, too. *wink* lol


I can access the internet from work, but not FaceBook. I think I will be spending my lunches writing blogs or working on homework. Probably homework.


The job has the potential to get frustrating or overwhelming, but for the most part, it’s laid back, and I like it. I think I’m going to get back to my homework though so that I can get some more studying in, and get to bed early so I can wake up and take a shower in the morning before work. Goodnight, All!

Sep. 17th, 2009

Just checking in...

I hate being bipolar. The ups and downs suck. But I think the downs suck even more. For the last week or so I’ve been trying not to let the depression win, and it’s just not working. I do a great job of putting on a face for everyone around me, which is exhausting to say the least, but inside... Inside I’m just nothing right now, without a single drop of ambition or motivation to keep me going. *sigh*


I have to leave for a job interview soon though. It’s for a job in town which would be nice but the pay is crappy. I mean the worst I’ve ever made at a full-time job and that’s saying a lot. Sounds like a job with a lot of responsibility, too. But I’m trying for anything right now so... I sure wish that Orkin would call me back though, that would be nice. I had a 2nd interview over the phone with them and now I’m just waiting to hear back from them about their decision. It’s nerve-wracking to say the least.


Well, I just wanted to check in with everyone, let you all know I’m still around and all. Not much else going on so I guess I should probably clean up our room and take the dog for a walk before I leave for my interview. Wish me luck.


Sep. 11th, 2009

I miss you, Daddy.

Dear Dad,

It’s been six months to the day that you left. I just finished watching the DVD that the US Navy sent us of your burial at sea. Mom tells me she has casings from the bullets fired during your 21 gun salute. I was proud of you as I watched it. It being September 11th helped in that I think. You served your country during a time of war and you got the burial at sea that you deserved for that sacrifice. But it also made me miss you so much.

It’s amazing how much I miss about you. Even the not so perfect things. I just miss my daddy, and the person you were.

I have to tell you that Quay’s dad reminds me a lot of you. Even in appearance. He’s tempermental and even smokes. It’s been hard not to call him dad. I know one day that I will, because he will be my father-in-law, but I mean that it’s hard for me not to think of you and call him dad, like he is you. He’s not. No one can ever be you.

Living in Vermont is so different than living in the southwest. Now I know what you were talking about when you talked about the beauty of New England. When I see a waterfall or pretty trees, it makes me think about how you would see them - if you would see them as pretty, too. Coming to Vermont was a big decision and after you left it was hard for me to stay in the desert.

I am doing really well in school, trying my best anyway. It’s been tough to try to focus on school actually. I’m not sure what the connection is with you, but when I try to do homework, I think about you and I miss you. I’m also still looking for a job. I think the search is going well though. I hope I find something soon. Quay found a job and started this past Wednesday. Even the fact that he will wear a uniform with his name on it reminds me of you.

Sometimes I feel that you are at peace in the ocean, enjoying the tranquility of the water. Other times, I feel you here with me and I know you are watching over me. I bet it feels good to have perfect knees again, and to not be in pain anymore. I still hurt knowing I couldn’t be there when you left, but I hope that you heard my words, and heard me tell you that I love you. I have to believe in my heart that you heard me.

I miss you, Daddy. I wish you hadn’t left, and I wish you hadn’t had to have gone through so much pain. I think I will watch your burial at sea again and say goodnight to you. After all, I have a busy day tomorrow.

Your Daughter,


P.S. I will have your ship’s bell and whistle hanging on the wall soon, I promise. I just haven’t been able to put it up yet.


Sep. 9th, 2009

Lots of good news!

So I got caught up a little yesterday while I was at the library. It felt good to get work done actually. And the quiet! Man, that felt good! I am working on a few more things this morning and probably this afternoon until Quay gets home from work.


Yup! I said WORK! He got a job! I’m so proud of him, and I know he feels better having a steady stream of income coming in, you know? Now I just have to work on getting MYSELF a job. I still want the job at BathFitter but I haven’t heard back from either them or the placement agency yet so we’ll see what happens. In the meantime, I’m applying for everything I can possibly qualify for.


I am also doing a lot of writing now just to help out with the bills and stuff. Besides, once we get the bills paid and all that, I want to start saving up for a laptop, and if my writing can get that done for me, well I’ll be even happier! I’ll have really worked hard for a new laptop, you know? The new writing job I have now is writing a mini-eBook about group activities and how to make the most out of them. It seems really interesting and something new so I think I’ll work on that this weekend. I’m also writing a lot for Demand Studios, and when I have the time I’m writing for Suite101 as well. It’s keeping me busy and keeping a small trickle of income coming in.


BUT! I think I shall set my Aerosmith CD to shuffle and work on some of these reviews on WdC I have to do.


Oh, but I have a question for you. I’ve been thinking about starting my own poetry contest OFF of Writing.Com. Like having people mail me their poems with a small reading fee to cover the prizes. What do you think???

Sep. 8th, 2009

At the library!

So I’m at the library. I haven’t been able to just sit in the quiet, relax, and get things done in SO long! It feels good to be sitting here. I love these surroundings… *sigh*

Anyway, the job for Bath Fitter working at the fair is over. Finally! It got really old just standing there and smiling pretty and selling people on the features of a bathtub. But I did it. And I hope I made a good impression on the hiring manager that I got to meet. I really want the full time Customer Service Rep position that they have available, you know? I guess we’ll see about it soon.

I had another job interview this morning though. I think I have a good chance at the job but it doesn’t pay well and is at least 45 minutes away. So I’m not sure I really WANT that job. I suppose that if it’s offered, I will take it, but I won’t stop looking for something better.

I want to get on homework today since I’m not sure when I’ll start working and I’d rather be ahead than behind, you know? I also have SO much to do to get caught up on Writing.Com. Actually, I’m not really sure where to start! LOL

But I suppose I’ll just pick a spot and start there. I’m waiting to hear from Quay about how his interview went this morning, as I think he has a really good chance at it.

Oh, and I posted two new poems to Triond and I’d really appreciate you taking a look at them and letting me know what you think? These are older poems that may need some work and I’d really love to brush them up a bit.



Well, I suppose I’d better get back to work and all that. *sigh* It never ends! LOL


Sep. 4th, 2009

Out with the old, In with the new.

Okay, so the job from hell is over. I worked my last day of cold calling people for surveys last night and I am happy that I’m done with it. We needed the money so I did what needed to be done. Today I work the fair for a company called BathFitter. I am sure it will be just as stupid of a job since I will be sitting in a booth talking to people about bathroom remodeling but at least I get to be outside and talking to actual people and not over the phone, you know? And besides, I’m getting paid more to work at the fair, lol.


School is going okay. I have some homework to do and I think I’ll work on it tomorrow when I get home from work about 6pm. That will give me enough time to get caught up, I think.


Oh, and I got my first article at Demand Studios published. That was really cool, and an easy $15. I need to use my PayPal account like a savings account again for awhile I think so we can save up some money to register my car. As is stands, I think we’ll only have enough time to register Quay’s truck and get his license renewed since it expires soon.


Well, I need to get going, working on an Xbox 360 game review article for Associated Content. I have a couple days left for it but still, I’d like to get it done today if I can. Tomorrow at the latest. I hope everyone is having a good Friday!

Sep. 3rd, 2009

My Life Revolves Around CLICKS!

So.  Work. I didn’t go on Tuesday. I had a fever and felt like crap so I called in and crawled into bed. I think that’s the only thing that kept me from getting sicker. So I felt better yesterday and went to work. Work sucked, as it always will when you are calling people out of the blue to ask them to take a stupid survey that no one cares about anyway. *sigh* But we need the money.


I have a job interview next Tuesday at Oce North America. I’m kind of excited about an interview with a larger company since most of the companies here are small businesses. I want the job security and possible advancement of working for a larger company, you know? So I’m looking forward to that. I also applied to work at the local newspaper, although I’m not really foreseeing anything coming of that really.


I still have the BathFitter place though that I’m working for at the fair on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. They have that fulltime opening for $14/hour and we could REALLY use that money, you know? So we’ll see what happens.


In the meantime, I’m moving some of my poetry over to Triond.Com. I get paid per clicks for it over there and while it’s not a lot, it’s better than nothing, and I’m still getting constructive criticism on my work. You should check out the following poems that I have put on Triond already:







Those poems are either new ones or ones that didn’t get a lot of feedback on Writing.Com so I’m hoping the change of venue will help to get me some more attention. Even if you just click on the links, I’d be very grateful.


Right now, it seems my entire financial life revolves around stupid clicks on everything from poetry to articles. I have another article on Suite 101 that I’d love to see some more clicks on?



I thank anyone who helps me out with some clicks from the bottom of my heart. THANK YOU!


So anyway, I should probably start my day and get to writing something more worthwhile. Like an article or something. I hope everyone has a great day!

Sep. 1st, 2009

Work from home or get a full time job?

As of right now I’m seriously contemplating busting my ass and making my money from home with articles and blogging, maybe my own website. I am really not looking forward to a job outside of the home and then having to learn how to drive in the snow and ice this winter when I work 30 miles away from home. You know?


So I have a question for you.


Am I being lazy by wanting to work from home even though I know it’s MORE work to do it that way?


I’ve been going back and forth on this for awhile now and I really can’t come up with an answer.


I’ve signed up and gotten approved for another writing site and it seems to me that this will lead to a greater potential for more money down the road, once I get going. I know this isn’t something that is going to give us a lot of income straight off the bat, but I can surely look for quick jobs and get working on a lot of articles on Demand Studios. At $15 a pop, it can really add up, you know?


So I need input here. Is this feasible for a full time income?


I also have school and classes to think about, and my schooling has to be a number one priority right now, especially since I’m on financial aide suspension. Will it be better to hold a full-time job outside of the home or work from home?


There’s so many factors in this and it’s really getting frustrating. I think if it was easier to find a job really close to home, like in THIS town, I wouldn’t be having so many issues with getting a job, you know?


Oh, check out my newest article please?


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Aug. 31st, 2009

Positive Signs!

Positive signs.


I like positive signs.


The temp agency I was to work for on a job that was to last only today and tomorrow just called to see if I could work the rest of the week as well. I can’t work Friday since I already have another temp job starting on that day, but I am now working at the University of Vermont for four days, and then for Bathfitter for three days.




We could really use the money right now, too. We both need to get our cars registered and I need a new license. Not to mention, Quay’s truck payment needs to be made. But my working this week is getting a lot of that taken care of.


And hopefully Quay’s job interview today goes well. He’s not back yet and he hasn’t called me so I’m hoping that is a good thing.


This week will be pretty hectic for me. Today I am watching the day care kids for Amy starting at 12:30 for a couple hours. Leaving for work at 2:30 and working until 9. It will take me about 45 mins to get home, then bed. I am going to be exhausted but when it comes down to it, it will get me out of the house, it will get me earning much needed money, and I will start to learn my way around Vermont with all the driving. Right? :-)


Well, time to get back to writing. I need to get some articles written and submitted to Suite 101 since I just got accepted there. I like that I can leave my work posted there for a year and then post it on Associated Content as display-only after that so I’ll be earning in two places. Cool, huh?


Anyway, see ya later!

Aug. 30th, 2009


So the house was quiet today. I got my homework finished and my laundry done, plus some straightening up in my room and we went to go find under the bed storage boxes. We didn’t find what we wanted for the boxes so I ended up ordering some online and they should be here in a week or two. That was easy!


But I’m really glad my homework is done. I still don’t have a great understanding of everything that was covered (and it’s only chapter one) but if I still have problems then I can always put an ad up at the University of Vermont asking for a math tutor or something to help me out. I hope it doesn’t get to that but still. Not grasping Chapter 1 completely isn’t a great sign for the rest of the school semester, you know?


What else did I say I did today? Oh yeah, chores. It felt good to straighten up in here. I wish I had those under the bed storage boxes so that I could put some more things away, but that will have to wait.


We ran some errands though. All we got was a trash can, but we needed one, so that works. I bought the rest of the stuff we needed to get today online. Am I the only person that hates waiting for things to arrive when you purchase them online? I think it sucks.


Oh, and I took a nap today! I hardly ever do that, and I didn’t really want to wake up, but it felt SO good to nap. That’s really weird for me since I usually only nap when I’m sick. I hope I’m not coming down with something, but considering how I’ve been feeling for the last day or two it wouldn’t surprise me, to be honest.


Man, this blog is a lot of rambling, isn’t it? Sheesh.


Well, more rambling.


I have a temp job that starts tomorrow working for the University of Vermont and making survey phone calls for research. I’m looking forward to getting out of the house and earning some money but survey phone calls? Yeah. But anyway, the temp job later in the week is the one that I’m really looking forward to. That is the one that may end up turning into a full time job!


Anyway, I should probably stop rambling and get to work now that I’ve been accepted to write for Demand Studios!

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